Mar 31, 2010 View Comments
My Views on My Life
I used to wonder how’s life of a postgraduate in Malaysia. I used to think pursuing education and putting others aside is an easy task. I used to be proud of doing things alone, study alone where I get all the peace I want. As I walked this path I chose, I began to realize how high is the summit and the hurdles I need to go through in order to realize my dream. The hurdles cause me to miss all the people around (e.g. Friends and Family), appreciate them more.
The Hurdles
Peer’s Pressure
I am having problems from peer pressure. I thought studying alone will not bring me any peer pressure as no one will compete with me in terms of results and yadda yadda.. But now I am facing more peer pressure in terms of career, money…I frequently wonder whether I made the right choice.
Dad’s Pressure
Friends who are close to me knew that my father is quite successful on his career. He have everything and made extra for his family too. For him, money is very important. He never share the same view as me. Since young, he groomed me to be more successful than him from his POV. I can be what he wanted me to but it isn’t my passion. I am facing contradiction on how to measure successful (e.g. Traditional Chinese POV or My Passion) cause they diverge.
Country’s Pressure
Malaysia is my country but the current government do not really appreciate people who share my passion, who want to create home-grown technology. People who need to be successful here need to be able to earn money. This contradicts again with research. Research used up money and time in order to develop bleeding edge technology.
Personal Problem
The most important thing here is I do have personal problems which hinder my path to reach my goal. I need to be discipline so that I can stay away from these distractions. I need to be wise in decision making. I need to stay focus.
Anyway.. I agreed on a saying :”Life on Earth is all about solving the contradiction.” I am solving my own contradiction and hit the perfect balance so that I can emerge to be a wiser one.

